Monthly Archives: September 2011

“You gave yourself cancer”

Now that I am both recovered from surgery and not nauseated quite as often as I was, I have started to educate myself a little more on diet and its links to cancer. I can’t control anything else that happens … Continue reading

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enjoying life

Yesterday, overwhelmed and discouraged by the thought of having to juggle school and cancer again, I was ready to quit my grad program and start enjoying my life more. Get a part-time job somewhere fun. Ride my bike a lot. … Continue reading

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good news: take one

This post doesn’t contain good news, it is about receiving “good” news. Prompted by some “good” news I received yesterday, if you want to call it that. My family and friends did. I just nodded and tried to pinpoint what I … Continue reading

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nothing

i am a liver has been “public” for about three days now and so far I have gotten a lot of great feedback, a respectable number of views, and a lot of encouragement, which is keeping me going. I also … Continue reading

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lack of control

The hardest thing–which is also, in a weird way, the easiest thing–about cancer is that I literally have no control over what it does. Sure I can decide to take my chemo or not take my chemo, but taking the chemo … Continue reading

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50/50

Perk of having cancer and living in LA: I got to see 50/50 tonight. For free. Nine days before it comes out. 50/50 is the new cancer comedy starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Seth Rogen. It’s weird that I consider this … Continue reading

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on clarity

I always go into these “big” appointments thinking that finally, once and for all, everything will be clear. That there’s just one scan and one appointment in between me and the whole truth about my illness. That the doctor will … Continue reading

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the checks and balances of a scan

I had a scan today. Scan #7 of this ordeal, fourth PET-CT. I’ve been on another three rounds of the pills since the last scan, and I am feeling relatively good and relatively without symptoms. Which might mean that I don’t have … Continue reading

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selfishness

As I have been dreaming up posts to write this past week it has occurred to me that another reason I haven’t started a blog is it feels a little selfish, redundant, and uninteresting to write a blog where I … Continue reading

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