two years

I enter my cancerversary today feeling a lot less conflicted than last year, more willing to celebrate, even. It has been quite an exciting year.

Though I have spent cumulatively many days in cold, windowless waiting rooms and exam rooms this year (and I celebrate this morning in both), I have spent very little time actually feeling sick. In fact, I have spent most of my time making lemonade out of these lemons that have been thrown at me. Or dancing, if you prefer that metaphor.

I made my latest batch of lemonade last week in Rochester, Minnesota, at the Health Care Social Media Summit put on by Mayo Clinic and my old company, Ragan Communications. I spoke about getting diagnosed, “coming out” on Facebook, this blog, and of course my video. It was only a little nerve-racking and surprisingly fun to stand up in front of over 250 people and tell my story. And the feedback was overwhelmingly positive. Don’t worry, I will post the video as soon as I have access to it.

I said this in my speech, with a lot more feeling and emphasis than I will say it here, but I realized when I was preparing that last year, almost no one knew I had cancer. This year, I “stood” in front of over 400,000 people on YouTube, thousands more on TV, the radio, and in the news, and these 250 people in Rochester last week and announced that I have cancer.

It feels absolutely amazing.

I don’t know why I needed to do all this. I am not extremely outgoing. I don’t usually like everyone to know my business.  But before I told everyone, I felt like I was lying all the time. Now, I feel like myself. Just now, with cancer.

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This year, I would like to dedicate my cancerversary to my great aunt. Also, to my dad, who spent a lot more time feeling sick (rather, hurt) this year than I did. As much as I am thankful that i’m still around to celebrate my two-year cancerversary this year, I am more thankful that my dad is just now, six months later, feeling much better.

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3 Responses to two years

  1. Matt says:

    Love the “dancing” metaphor!

    Keep dancing your dance, brave woman!

    Your courage & honesty are reverberating through the cosmos touching the lives of many people…

    Reminding us how precious life is & that we don’t have to have all the answers to be happy.

    Blessings to you & your family!

  2. Your presentation at the Mayo Social Media Summit was so inspiring! I feel honored to have heard about your journey in person. I wish you all the best.

  3. Matti says:

    More power to you Lindsey! And I’m happy to hear your sad is feeling better :)

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