Tag Archives: chronic

finding a plan B

The crisis seems to have passed. But because I am not cured, will likely never be cured, I need a plan B, always a plan B. The cancer is laying dormant in my liver but is still somehow creeping around … Continue reading

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the darkness and the light

It’s so light today. I’m sitting outside at a bright blue and yellow car wash with bright blue and yellow signs advertising waxes and detailing and hand washing. My car will soon be unburdened of the 15 bird poops unfortunately … Continue reading

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to Germany and back again

I went to Germany (and Prague) and came back again and it feels so good to be home. Indescribably good. Not just because I have a couch I can sit on and a bed with unlimited pillows and I can … Continue reading

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on and on

I don’t remember writing very much about the fear that gripped me the last time I was in Germany. I wrote of course about my fear of going. But i’m talking about the fear that I faced while I was … Continue reading

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talking to doctors

I went to see a different primary care doctor yesterday than my usual. I was prepared to give him my cancer elevator speech, but he came in, said, “Hi, I’m Dr. So and So. I just reviewed your medical history … Continue reading

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third opinions

Getting this third opinion yesterday was a bit like being diagnosed all over again. Except this time I knew what was coming, and I knew the lingo, and I don’t feel quite as sick as I did… but none of … Continue reading

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second opinions

It was a little scary but strangely refreshing yesterday to find myself at a different medical center in a different part of the city. In a year and a half I haven’t yet sought any second opinions. Now, with the … Continue reading

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the (other) cure

In my effort to be a well-informed patient, I (and my sister) decided to watch the documentary Burzynski, about a doctor who apparently cures cancer. I have received lots and lots of emails about this particular alternative cure, so I … Continue reading

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paying for it

Next week I turn 26, which is the magical age by which our legislators have decided that we must start paying for our own health insurance. Also, I think maybe I can rent a car without paying for extra insurance. … Continue reading

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