Tag Archives: being sick

things i am not thankful for

I have actually been writing a lot lately. Out of my fingertips have been pouring my darkest thoughts about cancer, things I just can’t bring myself to inflict on my readers without the context of a dozen “happy” posts on … Continue reading

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fatigue

I’ve been trying to puzzle out a rhyme and reason to fatigue. I’ve been feeling “fatigued” since my surgery in February. It’s different from being sleepy or simply “tired.” It’s more like an exhaustion that has rooted itself deep in … Continue reading

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other people’s problems

Getting diagnosed with a chronic form of cancer at age 25 has left me ill-equipped to deal with anyone else’s medical issues now, at age 26. It has taken time for me to remember that me getting dealt a bad … Continue reading

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how are you feeling?

Instead of saying “How are you?” or “How was your day?”, well-meaning friends and acquaintances have increasingly been asking me, “How are you feeling?” It always throws me off. First, it’s a question my doctors usually ask. So I have … Continue reading

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carpe christmas

I didn’t get a Christmas last year. Or a New Year’s Eve for that matter. But here I am this year, spending the holiday with my family and extended family, like I have so many times before. If I don’t … Continue reading

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a year ago at this time…

I just wrote an anniversary–rather, cancerversary–post, but today I’ve hit another important milestone in my life as a liver. This one is perhaps more important than my date of diagnosis: today, it has been a year since my surgery. My … Continue reading

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why?

I have learned a lot of things in the past year, but one thing that keeps coming back is: shit happens. It’s an inevitability of adult life that something bad will happen to you or to someone you know. Someone … Continue reading

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sweet home Chicago

I have been thinking about this line from my post last week a lot: “I won’t ever be the girl I was in Chicago again.” You see, I used to live in Chicago. Those of you who know me are … Continue reading

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not thinking about cancer

This week I have become the grad student that I hated. I have been spending my days and nights eating, sleeping, and drinking maps. I’m in this mapping class, and for the midterm project and now the final, the best … Continue reading

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moving on

Thanksgiving weekend was filled with a lot of usual things: food, family, fires, and long car trips, and one unusual thing: lots of talk about cancer. Learning to talk about cancer is almost like learning a different language. Since it … Continue reading

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